Be the change you want to see ♡

 This year has seen both the worst and the best of me. There have been trying times, emotionally, when giving up seemed to be the best thing to do. Instead, and I quickly learnt, that it wasn't actually the best thing to do, but it was the easiest. Sometimes when we are put into situations where we figure that just getting ourselves out of it is the best solution. You won't ever be put into a situation you can't handle. They are all tests in life. DETERMINATION is the best option, determination to SORT OUT the situation. When this is properly done, it's most likely that what happened won't happen again or at least, you would be better prepared when it does, if it does and the damage would be less. 


STRENGTH. 

1. The state, property, or quality of being strong. 2. The power to resist attack; impregnability. 3. The power to resist strain or stress; durability. 4. The ability to maintain a moral or intellectual position firmly.

   Have strength, keep focused. Know what you want and work towards achieving it. No one, other than you, would be able to fully understand how much you want something, how important it is to you. It is up to YOU to BELIEVE in yourself. If you don't have FAITH in yourself, how would others have faith in you ? Learn to LOVE and RESPECT those around you, but most importantly, learn to love and respect yourself. Know that you're SPECIAL and WORTHY OF THE BEST, never settle for mediocre. Never allow anyone, no matter who, to convince you that you deserve any less than the best. You may not be like  the rest, but that's the thing, you are yourself, you are different, be different, be yourself.  Set your goals, against all odds and WORK towards what you want. Surround yourself with people who love you, people who want to see the best for you, those who encourage you to do your best. After all, support is a key ingredient for success. Know that success is SELF SATISFACTION, you have succeeded when you are happy and comfortable, just simply satisfied with your position. 


In a couple minutes, we'll be celebrating a new year. Setting any resolutions ? Ensure that they test you to be a better person. The world around us is changing. The people around us are changing. You'll love and lose, but those who are kept, and continue to be there after the storm are most likely the ones who will always be there. Cherish your loved ones, you never know when is the last time you would see them, you never know what would be the last thing you say to them. Love them and keep them close. Don't let differences set you apart from them. Think about it and decide exactly how important they are to you, are you willing to lose them over something that could have been avoided ?  Know what's important and know what you can do without. FAMILY is the most important gift we have in this life, the most sacred, when you turn your back on them, what do you really have after that ?


LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES. Sometimes we do things we may regret, learn from situations like that. Don't allow those to repeat themselves. No one else may be able to understand your decision(s), that's when you need to TRUST in yourself. THINK before you make decisions, and when you know it's the right thing to do, go ahead. But, always be considerate of others. You're not the only person in this world. Your decision(s) may affect others, have respect for them, but never be so selfless that you compromise your own happiness. 
Oh, and be PATIENT. 


The preceding was just a little of what I learnt over the past year. I've loved, I've lost and I've loved again. I've been happy and sad, depressed and annoyed, excited and overwhelmed, peaceful and satisfied and a bunch of other emotions. As we grow older we experience new things and so we learn new things. I've learnt to start accepting the lessons life throws at me and to not ignore them. I hope this was helpful in some way to you. May God continue to bless you and your family, thank you for being a part of my life, I love you all and appreciate the roles you play. Live, Laugh, Love..


infinite Os and Xs
-Chelsea.

Present Time !

Kenisha and her AWESOME pop up princess card :)

Can not live without it !

No, I was not on a boat in the rough seas when recording the video, lol... sorry about that. The pictures are just some I took when I was opening my presents the Monday after, yes that is my school shirt..twas after school. Much love and thanks ...Chelsea :)

In plain sight

What goes around, comes around. 
The taste of revenge is so sweet and though 
in my head, I know the feeling is wrong,
it has conquered me. 


Yes, I am happy knowing that now
your emotions are exploding into plain
sight. The site I love so much, indeed,
I feel a sense of self satisfaction because
now I know, I've been reassured that you
care or once did.


Those nights I cried myself to sleep
because I felt abandoned by you, 
I felt your grip loosen from my fingers,
the very hand you said you would never
let go of. Because we're in this forever,
our relationship status might change, but
there'll always be "us".


" Bullshit ! " I thought, 
timid I approached you and your ideas,
your sweet persuasive words won my 
mind to believe you. You damn well knew
all along what the outcome would be like,
yet, you allowed your words to flow like the Nile,
and like a fool, I swam in your water.


The water I now perceive to be dark,
deep and murky, because you have failed.
You have failed me. Miserably. "I hate you ! "
I would scream it at you, my words meaning 
nothing, just those of my anger.


Not the anger formulated because
I didn't get what I wanted, but the anger
that became when i realized you knew the outcome
way before the start and yet you continued, had fun
being your doormat.


You bastard !
Distressed? Come to me now,
I shall comfort you. Never would I wish upon
you something bad because despite of your 
actions, you're my friend. I love you, but 
right now, I'm happy, call me bad, but I'm
happy because I've realized that you feel
what I feel. 


Or should I say felt ? I'm happy..






Well-behaved women rarely make history - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich...

Nerd Mode...ON

Hey...

I've been so upset and sad recently because I wasn't getting something done my way

but when I finally got it, it made me think.."Is this really what I want?" The answer is 

YES, however, I have so many other priorities before me right now...

like mock exams which start on Monday, unfortunately because I haven't started studying 

as much as I believe I should be. I am also eagerly awaiting the results for my January exams.

Maybe not eagerly...I have mixed feelings. One of my downfalls is that sometimes, when it comes to 

things with me, I like to run from the situation and approach it some other time, only particular situations 

though. I don't want to be disappointed but I think it's best I just get it over with.....right ?

Carnival this year was okay, really wasn't in the best mood but still tried to enjoy it.. J'ouvert and Tuesday 

mas left me tired and dark (like change my shade of foundation dark ) lol.. say wha..dais life.Oh...and I am 

finding hard to live because I am bb less :(. Don't judge me ! Lol. But I'm working on getting another really

soon, can't wait for that.

CXC is taking up so much of my time, the once avid reader doesn't read again, my ipod needs to be updated,

pics need to be uploaded, shopping (for essentials) need to be done and I NEED SLEEP. Soon  it would be over, I just hope I don't screw it up. Labs and SBAs are finally out of the way so I have started studying, I know this weekend is going to be a very productive one (with studying of course) so in preparation for that, I think some Thai Phoon Shrimp is needed xD. 

See how tired I look ?

Nathan and I.

Congratulations to St. Ann's house, alyuh lucky yuh have so many athletes in d house ! Hmph! And of course to St. Maria Goretti, bestest house ever, for the many victories ! 

I pray for the people of the Pacific Coast, their families and friends, may God grant them strength to deal with

the challenge they have been put against. :(

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”

Frederick Keonig 

Lots of love and luck to those preparing for exams,

-Chelsea <3

Super Confused, *sigh*

     I cannot think of a single suitable word which would perfectly describe my week. 

My mood changed from tired yet cheerful to stressed, sad and more tired. 

I did something terrible to myself, I didn't leave room for disappointment in

 a particular situation and now that things aren't going the way I expected it 

to go I'm emotionally numb. 

Numb in the sense that I don't know how to feel because I'm emotionally drained.

 I just ignore the situation, I pretend like it never happened, and maybe

 I am over thinking and just making a mountain out of the mole hill the situation is, 

but I'm hurt. That's what I am, hurt and just confused.

 Although it's eating me up inside I am not going to let it out, because 

I don't know how too, I don't know what to do. Whenever I try to speak about it 

I never know what to say, it's like I forget how to speak.

 What's going on with me?

    

Heyyy !

FINALLY found my usb soo...back to "blogging it up".

Another rather hectic week is about to pass and upcoming is the weekend which

 doesn't even seem like the 

weekend anymore because there's absolutely no "me" time. :( I can't wait to be finished with 

CXC, although I'm going straight into CAPE...*grrr* 

Labs and SBAs continue to conquer every last minute of my time !

Story of the lives of most form 5's.....where's the pillow to scream into ?!

But we're determined to succeed...nine 1s ! Right?

Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other. 

Abraham Lincoln 

PICS !!

Jellyfish !

Touch mih cool nuh ! LOL

Gen, Kenisha and Isis.

Isis..being Isis.

 ......

xoxo,

Chelsea.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T...

     Cheers to an AWESOME day !


     I am starting this entry with special thanks to everyone who made my day spectacular, that is, everyone I interacted with today, you all know who you are, much love ! <3 




Now, onto something a little more serious...


     When I was in primary school, my best friend in the entire world was a classmate of mine, as she requested, I will call her "Cindy-Lue" ( the name- idk the significance). We spent every Saturday together, all day, from class in the morning, to chilling at my house, classes in the evening, back to my house, sometimes (most of the times) she slept over, the whole nine yards. She was, and still is to me, a very dear friend, more like a sister.
      


     The other day, I heard some news, from her ( no gossiping, people), that really disturbed me. There she is, a beautiful, extremely intelligent, fun, outgoing, wonderful girl and she had this guy, her ex (thank God) boyfriend who was really being...whatcha may call it..an ass ! People, RESPECT is a hell of a thing, and no matter what situation you are put into, never forget to have respect for those you are dealing with. Some things are just not called for and sometimes, like him, you might do something you regret and when you have lost who/what you had and took for granted, then you'll realise how important they/it was to you. You might want them/it back but not all the time you can get what you want. Don't allow yourself to stoop to such a level.  STOP ! LISTEN ! ANALYSE ! THINK ! THEN SPEAK/ACT !








     Special thanks too:
Isis; you're the best ever, like walking joy.
Jeane and Areca; thanks for the support luvs !
Ananda; i want to see Suzanne/ Suz/ Suzuki...thanks for the laughs today.

Sockksss !

Renee and my Price Smart socks and Isis' pink and whities !

Today's quote:

Words may show a man's wit, but actions his meaning - Benjamin Franklin.

xoxo,

Chelsea.