Super Confused, *sigh*

     I cannot think of a single suitable word which would perfectly describe my week. 

My mood changed from tired yet cheerful to stressed, sad and more tired. 

I did something terrible to myself, I didn't leave room for disappointment in

 a particular situation and now that things aren't going the way I expected it 

to go I'm emotionally numb. 

Numb in the sense that I don't know how to feel because I'm emotionally drained.

 I just ignore the situation, I pretend like it never happened, and maybe

 I am over thinking and just making a mountain out of the mole hill the situation is, 

but I'm hurt. That's what I am, hurt and just confused.

 Although it's eating me up inside I am not going to let it out, because 

I don't know how too, I don't know what to do. Whenever I try to speak about it 

I never know what to say, it's like I forget how to speak.

 What's going on with me?

    

Heyyy !

FINALLY found my usb soo...back to "blogging it up".

Another rather hectic week is about to pass and upcoming is the weekend which

 doesn't even seem like the 

weekend anymore because there's absolutely no "me" time. :( I can't wait to be finished with 

CXC, although I'm going straight into CAPE...*grrr* 

Labs and SBAs continue to conquer every last minute of my time !

Story of the lives of most form 5's.....where's the pillow to scream into ?!

But we're determined to succeed...nine 1s ! Right?

Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other. 

Abraham Lincoln 

PICS !!

Jellyfish !

Touch mih cool nuh ! LOL

Gen, Kenisha and Isis.

Isis..being Isis.

 ......

xoxo,

Chelsea.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T...

     Cheers to an AWESOME day !


     I am starting this entry with special thanks to everyone who made my day spectacular, that is, everyone I interacted with today, you all know who you are, much love ! <3 




Now, onto something a little more serious...


     When I was in primary school, my best friend in the entire world was a classmate of mine, as she requested, I will call her "Cindy-Lue" ( the name- idk the significance). We spent every Saturday together, all day, from class in the morning, to chilling at my house, classes in the evening, back to my house, sometimes (most of the times) she slept over, the whole nine yards. She was, and still is to me, a very dear friend, more like a sister.
      


     The other day, I heard some news, from her ( no gossiping, people), that really disturbed me. There she is, a beautiful, extremely intelligent, fun, outgoing, wonderful girl and she had this guy, her ex (thank God) boyfriend who was really being...whatcha may call it..an ass ! People, RESPECT is a hell of a thing, and no matter what situation you are put into, never forget to have respect for those you are dealing with. Some things are just not called for and sometimes, like him, you might do something you regret and when you have lost who/what you had and took for granted, then you'll realise how important they/it was to you. You might want them/it back but not all the time you can get what you want. Don't allow yourself to stoop to such a level.  STOP ! LISTEN ! ANALYSE ! THINK ! THEN SPEAK/ACT !








     Special thanks too:
Isis; you're the best ever, like walking joy.
Jeane and Areca; thanks for the support luvs !
Ananda; i want to see Suzanne/ Suz/ Suzuki...thanks for the laughs today.

Sockksss !

Renee and my Price Smart socks and Isis' pink and whities !

Today's quote:

Words may show a man's wit, but actions his meaning - Benjamin Franklin.

xoxo,

Chelsea.

Giving it up !

       As i sat contemplating upon what the topic of my first blog entry should be, my thoughts drifted to thinking about why the idea of blogging even came into my mind. I decided the main reason was because I am slowing regaining the self confidence I once had. Many situations in the near past caused me to fade from being the "strong" person I am usually perceived as. I ask myself why I even allowed  to get like that and I can't answer.  That's not me...that weak, always self conscious and shy girl. My stupidity puts a smile on my face, looking back on it now, I don't regret being that way because it really taught me to love who I am, appreciate the people I have around and concentrate on what's most important.

       Disappointed by some, disappointed some, lost some, gained some but most importantly, loved by the ones I have. My friends are some of the most awesome people I know, they are the ones who made me realise, just today, that I don't need an entourage but I need keepsake friends and trustworthy confidantes. Thanks for giving me that wake up call, God knows i needed it. 

        Another reason why  I am so very proud of myself, I am really making the effort and working on strengthening my relationship with God. Today, I was able to keep the bad words back and ignore the negative around me, something I haven't been able to do in a long time. Haters are overrated ! I am so done wasting time over you all !

       Only a couple more months to go in the school term and I am enjoying every last minute of it regardless of what people think or say, because I am living my life, not theirs.

         

        

blessed and not stressed....

P.S - 

     I think you are really awesome Remi, thanks for the help. 

“Count your blessings. Once you realize how valuable you are and how much you have going for you, the smiles will return, the sun will break out, the music will play, and you will finally be able to move forward the life that God intended for you with grace, strength, courage, and confidence.” - Og Mandino.

xoxo, 

Chelsea.