In plain sight

What goes around, comes around. 
The taste of revenge is so sweet and though 
in my head, I know the feeling is wrong,
it has conquered me. 


Yes, I am happy knowing that now
your emotions are exploding into plain
sight. The site I love so much, indeed,
I feel a sense of self satisfaction because
now I know, I've been reassured that you
care or once did.


Those nights I cried myself to sleep
because I felt abandoned by you, 
I felt your grip loosen from my fingers,
the very hand you said you would never
let go of. Because we're in this forever,
our relationship status might change, but
there'll always be "us".


" Bullshit ! " I thought, 
timid I approached you and your ideas,
your sweet persuasive words won my 
mind to believe you. You damn well knew
all along what the outcome would be like,
yet, you allowed your words to flow like the Nile,
and like a fool, I swam in your water.


The water I now perceive to be dark,
deep and murky, because you have failed.
You have failed me. Miserably. "I hate you ! "
I would scream it at you, my words meaning 
nothing, just those of my anger.


Not the anger formulated because
I didn't get what I wanted, but the anger
that became when i realized you knew the outcome
way before the start and yet you continued, had fun
being your doormat.


You bastard !
Distressed? Come to me now,
I shall comfort you. Never would I wish upon
you something bad because despite of your 
actions, you're my friend. I love you, but 
right now, I'm happy, call me bad, but I'm
happy because I've realized that you feel
what I feel. 


Or should I say felt ? I'm happy..






Well-behaved women rarely make history - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich...

Nerd Mode...ON

Hey...

I've been so upset and sad recently because I wasn't getting something done my way

but when I finally got it, it made me think.."Is this really what I want?" The answer is 

YES, however, I have so many other priorities before me right now...

like mock exams which start on Monday, unfortunately because I haven't started studying 

as much as I believe I should be. I am also eagerly awaiting the results for my January exams.

Maybe not eagerly...I have mixed feelings. One of my downfalls is that sometimes, when it comes to 

things with me, I like to run from the situation and approach it some other time, only particular situations 

though. I don't want to be disappointed but I think it's best I just get it over with.....right ?

Carnival this year was okay, really wasn't in the best mood but still tried to enjoy it.. J'ouvert and Tuesday 

mas left me tired and dark (like change my shade of foundation dark ) lol.. say wha..dais life.Oh...and I am 

finding hard to live because I am bb less :(. Don't judge me ! Lol. But I'm working on getting another really

soon, can't wait for that.

CXC is taking up so much of my time, the once avid reader doesn't read again, my ipod needs to be updated,

pics need to be uploaded, shopping (for essentials) need to be done and I NEED SLEEP. Soon  it would be over, I just hope I don't screw it up. Labs and SBAs are finally out of the way so I have started studying, I know this weekend is going to be a very productive one (with studying of course) so in preparation for that, I think some Thai Phoon Shrimp is needed xD. 

See how tired I look ?

Nathan and I.

Congratulations to St. Ann's house, alyuh lucky yuh have so many athletes in d house ! Hmph! And of course to St. Maria Goretti, bestest house ever, for the many victories ! 

I pray for the people of the Pacific Coast, their families and friends, may God grant them strength to deal with

the challenge they have been put against. :(

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”

Frederick Keonig 

Lots of love and luck to those preparing for exams,

-Chelsea <3